Am I ok?

Am I ok?
It's such a loaded question.
Can I be ok when the world around me attacks?
When the ones that should build me up teat me down?
Am I ok?
But what does ok really mean anyway?
I'm here aren't I? Isn't that enough?
Do I have to be more than just here?
Can I not just relish in the fact that I'm here for one more day?
I say to you today no!
I can't be complacent one more day.
I can't be complacent another second.
If a day is truly like a 1000 in Your kingdom, then I've wasted generations in my complacency.
Am I ok?
I can't be ok anymore.
Ok is gone for me, from this day on. You have made me more than ok.
You have made me more than what I see in myself.
You have made me to be Yours.
Am I ok?
No longer can I be that way
Oh Lord, I pray.