Emptiness

As I walk through another day
pondering all the uncertainty that still clouds my way
I cry out for help from God
to again make straight this crooked way
to give me enough light for yet another day

"Why aren't you listening to me?
Why can't I hear you speak?
Are we really just going at this alone?
If you're still there why don't you speak?
Why can't you just let me know that you still hear me?"

I know I'm here for something more
to do more than just check my emotions at the door
For the present time I will wait for your plan to be revealed
I'll continue to walk your path through the open door
and pray that at the proper time you will lead me into something more

"My child why do you continue to worry?
You know so well that I've never left you.
All your life I have been right by your side.
For all your life I shall never leave you?
So why in this moment do you continue to worry?"

"Things are different this time, can't you see?
I've gone all my life and even now there is only me.
I know that you created us to be relational beings,
so why in the world is it still just me?
is there something wrong with me that I just can't see?"

"My child, My child, of course there is nothing wrong.
for I created all the world that you can see
and the most delicate balance between death and life
surely through my revelation you must now see
that from Me there can come nothing that is made wrong?"

"I tell you now my child, your time will come.
I am preparing you both even now to be one
to be the man and woman that I have raised up to carry my Word
when I am finished with you both, you shall be one.
Until then please by patient, your time has not yet come."

"My God, my God, forsake me not for my doubt!
I'm just truly scared to continue to live without.
I know that there is one out there that you have for me.
And I know that you have not created me to be left out.
Please God up above remove from me this doubt."

So until that moment comes I'll wait
on pins and needles until that coming day
when the one that is out there for me is brought into sight
when finally reach that slowly coming day
the emptiness I feel will finally go away: I can't hardly wait.